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I was always interested in Japanese culture, especially J-Fashion. I loved kawaii, lolita, decora and things like that. But I also grew up watching Tim Burton movies, and my mom was a huge fan of weird somewhat gothic things.

I liked both things.

Time skip to idk how long, and one of my friend told me about a My Hero Academia animation using the song Rolling Girl. I wanted to know what it said, so I found an English cover. The lyrics made me feel a way I can't really explain, but I felt like I was noticed in a way. It explained something I had bottled up for a long time, and I just had to find more things like that. I eventually found an Akidearest video about sad VOCALOID songs. I had known what VOCALOID was, but never really tried getting into it. But after I saw Aki's video and listened to the songs I felt like I had to get into it.

This community was just so welcoming, and I found songs that I could relate to.

I was getting into it slowly, and then I heard the song Echo.

That made me really want to get into VOCALOID even faster, so I tried a lot harder to get into it.

That will be important for later.

One day I was watching fashion videos and a video called something along the lines of

"The dark side of Harajuku". It looked interesting so I watched it, and it was about something called Yami Kawaii, and it looked very interesting. Basically you combine elements of sickness with elements of cute. People used this aesthetic to cope with their own mental struggles.

I started getting more and more into it to try coping through my own struggles with drawing characters inspired by the aesthetic. I already knew a lot of the songs that were in Yami-Kawaii playlists from being into VOCALOID.

This lead me to having some of my favorite current artists.

Yami-Kawaii is an aesthetic made for you to cope with your own struggles, so that's what I did and what I do.

Since Yami-Kawaii is very similar to Pastel Goth, I also fall under that. I combined the creepy and the cute, and boom pastel goth.

I'd say gurokawa too, because I also like to draw that.

All in all, my aesthetic is a mix of the scary things and cute things in life.

I am still growing, and exploring my aesthetic so it most likely will change. But this is how I am now.

Angelcore+babycore I'd say. Maybe look at kawaii too.

I'd say Cybergrunge is the best pick! Thank you once again

Thank you!